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The Ways Art Makes Me Feel


Art can be a soft feeling that invokes me and makes me feel serene. Art can be an ever striking lash to my face. Art can make me laugh so hard I clutch my sides. Art can make me want to go in a corner and just think or cry. Make me want to be alone so I can feel things on my own. Art can also make me want to go out be so social I flutter away, I’m high on everybody’s attention on me. I shy away because on the inside I’m just a weathered soul who wants nothing more than just to feel. Living on the edge is not my lifestyle. But staying in my comfort zone is not the way I want to keep on living. I want to do those things that make life worthwhile. My circle of comfort needs to be stepped out of. It needs to be broken and I can be set free. Set free to do what I really want to do. Create. I want to be somebody that creates things that makes other people feel whatever their heart allows them to. Create that little thing called art. Not everything is art. But anything can be art.



How Cleaning Helps With My Depression

I’m a freak yes I know. I love cleaning and organizing. Probably two of the most dreaded things people do in their lives. Sometimes I can’t even go to sleep if my house isn’t in order. It’s not like I’m OCD. I don’t go marvel over specks of dust and clean through all the cracks. I just like things relatively clean and organized. Sometimes, I’m so excited to wake up in the weekends because I know I have a whole day of cleaning ahead of me. I start with the bedroom because there’s the least to do in there. I don’t keep a lot of stuff because I think a bedroom should be free of clutter to be nice and peaceful for sleep. The key is to keep things simple. The fewer things to clean and the easier it is as things have their own place. Two of my favorite cleaning tasks are vacuuming and doing laundry. I love vacuuming because it’s a great finisher and I love the little tracks it makes on the carpet. Laundry is fun because I love the smell of fresh clean clothes. My least favorite task is washing the dishes. I don’t like getting wet or touching old food left over. I hand wash my dishes because I don’t like using the dishwasher. I reorganize my closets and purge through items I don’t want anymore. It gives me a refreshed, light feeling. Doing all of this gives me such a relaxed and productive aurora. I get in the zone. I get in that mood where I don’t think about anything else going on in my life. I tune everything out and listen to upbeat music as I clean. It helps me feel renewed and purposeful. It’s very zen. I suffer through mild depression. Cleaning in fact saves me. It’s a way of life telling me it’s moving on and moving around. If it wasn’t then things would stay the same and I wouldn’t have anything to do. Which is the time when I get the most depressed.  I used to have weekends where I would have absolutely nothing to do. Then I get into this funk where I feel like I don’t have anything to look forward to. Thoughts that life will always stay the same, boring and stagnant. Cleaning keeps me busy and reassures me that the world is moving on. It’s a good thing my home gets messy! In fact, I get excited about mess. Something I know that will take up my time.

Life on the Other Side: Dealing with Stress

Stress is something everybody deals with on a continual basis. I get stressed out about every single thing imaginable.

-The over amounting work I have to complete.

-Dealing with people. Not just difficult, just people in general.

-When things don’t go my way….

The number one reason stress preludes my day. I woke up completely wrong. Hated the blazing sun on my eyes. Yes, spring is more like summer where I reside. Which is another funny story actually, as I was getting emotional the night before about missing the drafty and freezing winters. Winter, I wait again for you to wrap me around that shawl of cold, cold embrace. Yes, dramatization is the key to emotional confessions. I started getting ready for my day, but my eyes resorted to being puffy and watery.  Broken appearance has a great deal of an effect on women and needless to say, to that point I was stressed out. Stress can be described like today’s economy, as a spiraling cycle. When it begins to be bad, there seems to be no way to stop it or to get out of it. On a whim, I looked up on the internet, “stress”. Maybe there could be some profound psychologist who has composed magic steps to release me from this. So, I found a video from Ted Talks, a speaker named Kelly McGonigal who has realized the proper way to deal with stress.

From this, I learned there is life on the other side, the right way to live with stress.

It is the common conception that stress is seen as something negative. Atrocious. Bad. Dreadful. All in all, Crappy. It is not good to have stress; it is one of the leading causes for the number of deaths. Seriously. However, the turn around is not the fact that we have stress, it is the way we look at it.
Change the way we approach stress. Change the way we view stress. Stress is our body’s way of prepping us for whatever comes next. Our body’s way of pressuring us to the point and we then finally act. So, yes stress helps us in life! Take for example of the stress of public speaking. People can definitely be feeling the weight when they have to present themselves in front of others. That is when stress comes to play. It pushes us. It pushes people when they have fear. They act on their stress and come through with something they were dreading otherwise.

Stress prompts us to want more human interaction. Makes us social. This is quite astounding as I am as antisocial as it ever gets. Talking to people, helping out people actually lets us release some of the energy we have when we are stressed out. It makes sense, it feels good to physically interact with someone or help out others in need. It also lets people seek support of their troubles instead of bottling it all up. Human connection is a important factor in dealing with stress. Rethink your stress response. Think of stress as being helpful when you go into a situation next time and the results will be an insurmountable change. Think of stress as a rouse to go seek people and the connections to them.

View stress differently. Make a statement against stress that you can handle it. Make a statement that you are not alone when dealing with stress. Maybe you will see, life is really better on the other side.